My relationship with music has previously been discussed on my blog. I’ve described bits and pieces in Daily Prompt: A Source of Anxiety, Daily Prompt: Papa Loves Mambo, and Do You Understand Everything When You Listen to a Song?
To clarify something that has been misinterpreted in the past: I am NOT saying that I hate music. I don’t hate music. Music is okay.
I simply don’t need it. I feel no connection with it. Some people say things like, “That song really speaks to me!” I can’t say I’ve ever felt that way before. Most songs only interrupt my thoughts and limit my ability to concentrate.
When I drive, the radio is off.
When I study, you’ll find me somewhere is complete silence.
Even at parties, I find it extremely difficult to “feel the music.”
At most, I can tolerate yoga music and some classical or instrumental stuff. Anything with lyrics – I’ll pass.
My friend told me she found an interesting article online this month and it reminded her of me!
The article is called:
The Actual Neuroscience Behind Why Some People Don’t Like Music.
This article (Link removed since it was taken offline) is describing people that sound like me. There’s been a scientific study analyzing why some people’s brains respond (or don’t respond) to the sound of music. I’m fascinated and I wish this study offered a little more concrete information. I already assumed my brain doesn’t respond to music in the same way as most people’s. I want to know why. What is the specific cause?
So anyway, I guess I have “specific musical anhedonia.” None of this surprises me, I just never knew there was a term for it. At least when people ask me what my favorite song is and I have to pause, think, and make something up, I won’t feel as self-conscious about it anymore.