The day I have dreaded for nearly one whole year has finally arrived. Thursday morning, my boyfriend, Jorge, left Rutgers to return back to Spain where he originally is from. As anyone who has ever been involved in a long-distance relationship surely knows, saying goodbye was by far one of the most challenging things I have ever had to do.
I can’t even begin to tell you how emotionally devastating this goodbye has been for me. The number of mornings the last two weeks where I have woken up only to find tears running down the side of my face, thinking about what lurked around the corner for us is way greater than I’d care to admit. It has been really hard.
Jorge and I have grown so close since we first met. We oftentimes would joke around (although there is actually much truth to this statement) and say how incredibly grateful we are that we really made the most of the time we had together during his foreign exchange year. We started dating less than a week after he arrived in the States last August. We both knew from the beginning that after the spring semester ended in May of this year, he would have to return back to Spain. Fortunately for us, he was hired to work in a lab over the summer so we gained a few extra months together. That was an added bonus.
The bond we formed was something remarkably special in my life. Jorge has the most peaceful heart of anyone I have ever encountered. His views come from such a good place, looking for the best in anyone and in all situations. He actively challenges the bad in the world seeking a happier and more sustainable planet. He is open-minded, intelligent, witty, and so loveable. I am consistently amazed at the things he does and tells me about on a daily basis. His impact at Rutgers and on me has not gone unnoticed and I will miss him greatly.
I have not a single regret. I opened my heart to someone amazing and he has proven time and time again that it has undoubtedly been worth it. Each and every day.
Saying goodbye to him Thursday morning wasn’t easy. We cleaned out his home on Wednesday and packed everything up. We decided what was garbage, what was his to take home, and what I would hold onto. For anyone who never has to experience this, consider yourself very lucky. Packing is a real reality check with situations like these. It tends to be the point when you realize… wow, so this is actually happening.
Naturally, many tears followed.
On our last night together, we moved our belongings into my new residence hall. The fourth-place we have moved into in the last year. The following morning, we got breakfast together one last time. After sitting outside the restaurant trying to mentally prepare ourselves, we began the dreaded walk to the train station where we would ultimately say goodbye to one another.
Upon walking out to the station’s platform, I knew I only had a matter of minutes left with Jorge before he would leave me. My hands. My world. My anxiety was through the roof. I feared the sound of any train knowing what it meant for us. When one finally pulled up, Jorge left my arms, looked in my eyes, said one last goodbye, and disappeared into the train.
A mere three hours later, I began Residence Life Summer Training. Finding myself on a new campus, with a whole new staff, thrown into a new reality. So far, things have been off to a good start. Jorge has informed me he is safely back in Spain. He’s finally catching up on sleep right now after a long trip home. It’s nearly 2 AM by me and I have my third day of RA training tomorrow so I should probably try to get some sleep now too.
Good night, everyone!
I feel you both my friend, a year is a long time but goes far too quickly in the end. I sincerely hope that you can maintain the obvious binding love you have between you and your story can continue. I’ve enjoyed every post and every minute and every memory that you have shared with us all. Good luck and fondest love. Dx
Thank you, David! I hope so too. Me and Jorge have been talking since his arrival in Spain and so far so good. It is weird knowing he is so far away from me geographically. I hope we can maintain our bond during the hard year we have ahead of us. I love him a lot though. Thanks again for your support.
Always good to hear of such nice things in life so I wish you all the best. Where there’s a will there’s a way I sure of it and what an opportunity for a eEuropean holiday anyway. Keep us all posted. Dxx
How was resident life summer training?
Awe Rocky, I’m sorry you had to say goodbye to Jorge. I know that’s tough to do. I hope you get to see him again though: maybe he can show you around Spain the way you showed him around Rutgers. The experiences and memories you had with him will stay with you no matter where you go in life. Hang in there, it’ll get better.
Hey Mike! I’m in training right now actually and it has been fun so far! It is a long 2 weeks but it is totally worth it. I can’t wait to finally meet my new residents this year. Anyway, thank you very much for the support! I would be unbelievably happy if I had the chance to visit Spain in the future. Maybe I will, I’m not sure what will be financially/logistically possible this academic year. Keeping my fingers crossed.
In a month or two I will be experiencing the same thing so my heart is truly with you. Know you are not alone, the world has become at once a much larger and much smaller place, and international love is such a challenge, but I don’t believe love as strong as what you and Jorge have could ever be a mmistake what’s meant to be will be, thinking of you and wishing you comfort in the hard and lonely days ahead xo if you ever need to talk …I’m here xoxoxoxo
Touching Post :'(
At least it’s nice to have someone in your life!! Be happy about that!! Wish you fellows the best!!
question, how do you tell whether it’s not a summer fling?
I have been dating my boyfriend for nearly a whole year now. This summer was a bonus we never expected to be able to share together.