I have been living in quarantine for 2 months.
What’s amazing, to me, is that we’ll remember this pandemic for the rest of our lives. Everything has been so extreme. The disease. The response. The pushback. All of it is just… a lot.
For me, this Friday will mark 9 full weeks of social distancing from family, friends, and other humans in general. At this point in the quarantine process, I am realizing that there are things I miss and things I have done just fine without.
Here’s what I miss:
Family & Friends
First and foremost, I miss seeing people I care about. Video chatting and partaking in virtual game nights have helped me trick myself into thinking life is still going on as usual. Still, part of me misses the kind of interactions that really only happen when you’re around one another. I want to see my grandparents. I want to go out for drinks with my friends.
It is hard to envision what it will be like finally being around people again after all of this trauma. Will things be similar to how they used to be?
Leaving My House
This is the first time in my life that I’ve ever stayed home for this long.
61 days without going… anywhere.
Even as a baby, while being raised by my parents, I still had to go out every now and then. Whether it was for a visit to a doctor or because my parents needed to run an errand and I had to tag along, there were still reasons to venture out. But not now.
Times are different.
It’s such a strange feeling to just… be… home. All the time.
Shopping In Real Life
Anything that’s necessary gets ordered online and delivered. Amazon and online retailers have changed everything because it’s actually possible to legitimately “stay home.” The fact that it is even possible to live like this is actually amazing, in a strange kind of way.
I miss being able to jump in my car and drive to a store just to look around. Leisurely shopping for no reason other than for some much needed retail therapy. I used to love going to malls just to be in a busy place filled with people. I think that is why I loved walking to Primark in Spain. People. Hustle and bustle. Something about it made me happy.
My state, New Jersey, has been battling against the rapid spread of this terrible virus. Cases have been really widespread here. Maybe it is because of how densely populated we are here. 🙁 What’s even more interesting is that despite being a major hotspot, many people here are protesting and fighting to demand a rapid re-opening of our state’s economy.
I like to have my own freedoms and liberties as much as the next person, but not at the expense of risking my own health. I am not exactly sure what everyone is so angry about. Social distancing sucks but social distancing is not being mandated to make us miserable.
They want to slow the spread of COVID-19 and flatten the curve. And flattening the curve successfully means social distancing works. Not that COVID-19 was overhyped or a total hoax, which some conspiracy theorists seem to be pushing.
Very recently, a video called “Plandemic” went viral.
That video seems to promote anti-vaccine propaganda hoping to make people doubtful of Dr. Fauci and the government’s intent. With ominous music playing in the background, they make claims such as, “the flu vaccine already had coronavirus in it.” The documentary makes the coronavirus pandemic seem like one giant plot against the American people engineered for Trump’s ultimate demise. Nevermind the small detail that this pandemic originated in China and has negatively impacted the entire global economy, not just ours.
I wanted to address the rumors in that video with a different video from Doctor Mike who fact-checks the claims made in Plandemic and explains which ones are true and which ones are misrepresentations. You can watch it here:
The amount of controversy and unrest that I’ve observed over the last two months has been striking. It feels like no one really knows what to think anymore. Watching people debate over these decisions in politics, public health, and civil rights is exhausting. It is just one huge mess.
It doesn’t help that this pandemic is the only thing you hear about on the news.
(I’ve always avoided the news channels on television as a source of gaining information because of their focus on negativity. This pandemic has only magnified my lack of desire to ever use them as a reputable source of receiving unbiased information.)
You really have to think – and think hard – about where you get your information from.
I hate that when I reach into my refrigerator to grab a carton of milk, I have to wonder… could this have coronavirus on it? On one hand, I feel overly paranoid thinking like that with every single thing I touch. On the other hand, I know it’s actually not totally irrational. It’s a real possibility.
Underreacting can be just as bad as overacting, if not worse. To ignore simple safety precautions is just a manifestation of being in denial over what is happening here.
Here’s what I don’t miss:
The Pressures of Daily Life
As difficult as staying in quarantine has been, I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that these last few weeks have been extremely beneficial to me for the sole purpose of relaxing.
There has been a lot of anxiety and worry along the way but the time being stuck home has also helped me to take a deep breath and to stop thinking about everyone else. Sometimes I’ve felt guilty for not going out and doing things but I have to remind myself that I’m actually serving the greater good here by keeping my distance.
I’m so used to always having responsibilities and this is the first time in a long time that I’ve been able to put my own priorities first. I’ve coped with all of this by spending more time on hobbies and projects I’m personally invested in – like my blog!
I’ll miss having all of this time at my disposal.
How are you doing?
Hope you’re staying healthy and safe.