Is it weird that I feel like I could go every single day of my life spending time with only my parents and my younger sister, never once hanging out with my any of my friends, and still feel like the happiest person on Earth?
I know this may sound crazy and I mean this in the nicest way possible, but I honestly feel like I don’t need my friends outside of where they belong. When I am at school, I want to see my friends from school. When I go to work, I want to see my friends from work. When I visit the school district I used to attend, I want to see my old friends. I do not, however, feel like I have to hang out with them outside of their respective places.
I don’t think the feeling is mutual because I get frequent texts saying things like, “I miss you!” and “We have to hang out!” or “Come over my place and hang!” but I don’t understand why…! Why do we have to hang out when I’ll see you tomorrow? Why do we have to Skype tonight if we arranged plans for lunch tomorrow? Like, in the nicest way possible, please leave me alone! Besides, I have a lot of things to do! When I have free time, I want to decompress.
I love nothing more than the sound of nothing – total silence. I love sitting with my computer, freely browsing the web, blogging as I please. I love sitting with my sketchbook and charcoal or even colored pencils and just letting my mind run free. I could do yoga, read a book, the options are endless. When I’m with people, I feel like I can’t do that as much.
Heck, you guys know, I HATE HATE HATE calculus BUT NO JOKE I think I’d be happier sitting in my room doing calc homework than going out with my friends to a party… that probably makes me sound like a total freak BUT IT’S HOW I FEEL!
Don’t get me wrong, these are nice people we are talking about. I’m also a very happy and positive person. I love socializing and having a good time once in a blue moon, but for every little outing, I feel like I want to go home and stay there forever even though I had fun! What’s my deal?
Does anyone else feel the same way? My one friend once said I might be an introvert but I don’t feel like an introvert… hmm maybe it’s time to do some research.
UPDATE: So I eventually figured everything out. I’m an INFJ – here’s how I figured out!